Affirmation: I savor life. I glory in life. I love my life!
I love my life.
I haven’t always felt that way but I wanted to feel that way and isn’t that what affirmations are for, to empower us to create our own reality? I can remember very clearly the first time I heard someone say, “I love my job.” I was a teacher in a rural middle school. I already had one child and I’d been teaching for a few years. The gentleman who spoke those words was the English chair of this very small school. How much money could he have been making? I knew that wasn’t the reason for his happiness. I didn’t ask him why but over the years, I listened for others to say the same thing and I very rarely heard it. How often have you heard such a declaration? Then, one day many years later, I heard a woman say to me, “I love my life.” She had shared with me in the past, how unhappy she was, so this time I asked her why. She had made some very conscious choices and some very drastic changes. She had moved to Italy, took up painting and dancing and fell in love with life. Sure, if I moved to Italy or even went to visit for an extended period, like Elizabeth Gilbert in Eat, Pray, Love maybe I would feel that way too. But, maybe I could simply come up with an affirmation, affirming how I felt about my life. Could that possibly work? Could I change the way I felt about my life by simply stating “I love my life?” Could you? Well, I sure had nothing to lose and so, I created the affirmation. I added a few other lines to cement the emotion. And, I claimed it, I wrote it, I read it every morning. Then, it happened. I realized, I did love my life. I have surrounded myself with love, love of God, family, friends. My life is really cool and I feel wonderful about it. This is what I believed happened. By the power of my affirmation, I slowly began to change. I became more conscious about my decisions, about what I chose to do and not to do, about who I chose to be with and who I did not want in my life. The affirmation worked just like affirmations do. It slowly permeated every fiber of my life and without struggle I was off “living in Italy” painting, dancing and loving my life.
Affirmation: I freely forgive myself and others.
Recently, my book group read, The Girl in the Blue Dress by Gaynor Arnold Catherine Taylor. It’s the fictional story of the wife of Charles Dickens. It created a great deal of conversation, which is one reason I am part of a book group. In the story this woman went about healing herself of every shred of animosity she had with regard to those who had mistreated her in her life. And, she was very poorly treated, even, some would say, abused. Her husband disowned her, made her leave her home and 6 of her 8 living children. Her sister took over the household and kept the family from contacting her. Her husband had what everyone thought was a mistress. Even after her children were grown, they did not connect with her. She had a lot to be angry about. She had a lot of justified reasons for resentment and she had quite a bit, as you can well imagine. But, after her husband died, she openly accepted those people in her family who wanted to make restitution. She didn’t demand a thing from them, other than an open mind and heart. She even took herself to her husband’s rumored mistress and made peace with her. What do you think? Was she a weak, desperate person or was she wise and strong? Was she so use to being used as a doormat that she no longer knew how to stand up for herself, or was she so relieved to let go of years of loneliness and shunning? All I can tell you, is that I found her actions to make peace with her pain, inspiring. Oh, it’s so easy to hold onto resentments, to work them over in our minds until we know we are right and our nemesis is oh, so very wrong, perhaps even evil. But, truly, when I do that, those emotions, those conversations I have with myself, don’t disturb that other person in any way. The only one who is unsettled and disturbed is me. Sure, it takes me longer to let go of somethings than others. But, it really helps me to tell myself that; I freely forgive myself and others. I know by putting this affirmation into practice, I am happier, I am more peaceful and I am healthier. Truly, there are no justified resentments. Let them all go, especially the ones you hold towards yourself.
Affirmation: I release myself from my childhood limitations.
It was small and it was red and it was not, at that time, very unusual for a youngish child to want to own such a thing. I believe I was less than ten when I was gifted it by my father. It was not considered a weapon, although now looking back, I realize it certainly could have been used as one. No, it was a symbol of independence, of responsibility. It empowered and it emboldened! I could climb the highest tree and carve my name, my initials, and any symbol I created in the uppermost branches. I became eternal, hidden away among the swaying branches and soft leaves never to be discovered by another but always held in the heart of my childhood. Children were freer then. The neighborhood was my playground as long as I was home when the street lights came on. But, just over the cyclone fence was the forbidden territory, the huge expanse of grass and trees that made up the grounds for the local hospitals. Oh, once there, it was like escaping to Narnia, adventures unlimited, no adults to supervise or even witness our daring, especially if we were elusive and took care. Oh, sometimes, the tree resisted my attempts to mount it, but I, with my trusty tool, simply claimed it right where it stood, my name, the date, carved there for all passer-bys, witnessing my ownership, my power!
And I, but a girl, with the glimmer, with the hope, of what it would be like one day to make my mark on the world, on life.
Affirmation: I embrace the wisdom of my life’s experiences and let go of any emotional baggage.
Have you ever had something happen in your life that you could not let go of? Something that seemed to haunt you? Something that you were sure you had “gotten over” that kept appearing? Something that kept coming up even in your dreams?
Some things, my husband tells me, have longer tails than others. I liked that image. I could see it so clearly. Some things are simply fond memories; other things linger long after I believe they serve any purpose. They can be draining, unsettling. Sometimes, I can’t even imagine why these thoughts that keep coming up, have become so insistent, so obsessive. I have tried many tools to re-direct my mind. I can seem to implement them and they will help for a while, but then “pop,” up they come again. I haven’t always been like this. It seems to be something that has come with age or perhaps, the experience has come because I have aged enough to have it.
Recently, I picked up a book someone gave me a long time ago but to which I have not paid much attention. It’s one of those books that has daily readings. It’s called, Spiritual Insights for Daily Living.
The reading from January 21st brought me healing and I would like to share it with you.
“I am now ready for a cleansing–getting rid of debris that I have harbored much too long. Anyone who at any time may have contributed to causing disharmony within me, I bring into consciousness and I see them clearly and honestly. As I visualize them, I say with feeling and complete sincerity: “I fully and freely forgive you.” I see myself happy about this, and I release them and now go free. I breathe a deep sigh of relief. I WILL HAVE NO NEED TO REPEAT THIS. Whenever they cross my mind, I simply say, I HAVE DEALT WITH THIS. I send them a blessing and turn my thoughts to something else. As we are freed of our detrimental emotions, we are free to be healed and to become whole. ”
I love the, “I have dealt with this.” Truly, it has released me from the hauntings. The tail has slithered out of my psyche. I have finally found a way to embrace the wisdom of my life’s experience AND let go of any emotional baggage, at least for now and what else is there?
Affirmation: This is the day the Lord has made, let me rejoice and be glad in it.
My friend and fellow church member died this week. She had been fighting a recurrent cancer for about a year now. She chose to stop treatment. It was no longer helping her. I’d been by to visit her several times, over the last couple of months. I enjoyed sitting with her and discussing different ideas and sharing stories. I saw her on Thursday of last week. She was in so much pain. She was in so much pain and she was so worried about being “rude” to me. I was lucky. Before I left her, I leaned over and whispered, “I love you.” She responded, “I love you too.” Those were the last words she said to me. I am holding them tenderly in my heart now as I write and all through this week as we, myself and all those who loved her, go through the rituals of saying our final goodbyes.
We had been in the same church group for about 4 years. We meet twice a month. We also found ourselves at the same mass many times and we would sit together. Other than those occasions, we weren’t really close until she became ill again. One thing, I knew, she was a very faith-filled woman. She was always working for the poor, the homeless, those less fortunate than she was. Interestingly, to me, I found myself wondering if she needed an organ transplant and realized, I would be more than willing to donate. I never had to make that decision and I learned, I wasn’t the only one who was considering the donation.
I saw her again when I stopped into visit at the rest home where they had brought her to. They had given her 1 to 2 weeks more to live. I arrived to a group praying the Rosary. How comforting it was. She was unconscious. After a short while, her best friend and main caregiver, wanted to leave to run some errands. He asked me and another member of our group to stay with her. We both had plans but we let them go and remained. Our patient looked pretty good. Her color was good and she was breathing easily. Within 20 minutes, her color changed, her breathing changed and within another 20 minutes, she died., We were standing with her, my fellow parishioner and I, when she took her last breath. I can still see her face. She was at peace.
Something happened in that time, something profound and transforming. I don’t know yet, what the effect of this experience will be but I know, it has changed me in a miraculous way. I feel blessed. I feel honored. I feel grateful.
I believe, from previous experiences and from my education, that many people choose when to die; they chose when to let go and I believe our friend chose to die in our presence. I also believe that she took a piece of our spirit, our soul with her to heaven. I am closer to her now than I ever was before. I became her sister, her sister in Christ, in life and in death. I have been given a gift, a gift that will be with me for the rest of my life. And, with this gift, comes the responsibility to embrace life fully, especially each and every day, especially today!
Affirmation: 1. I live a Christ centered life of Love, Joy, Peace, Gratitude and Compassion.
2. Because of my faith in Jesus Christ, I let go of fear and anxiety and fully trust in His loving care for me.
I am a cradle Catholic. I think you would also call me a “cafeteria Catholic.” I have taken what works for me in my religion and let go of what does not. I always credited my mother for this trait. She is a convert and even when I was a little girl, she led me to believe everything I was being told, wasn’t necessarily the only truth. This has served me well. It’s a skill I have used not only with my faith, but in many areas of my life experiences.
I mean, when you look at the Catholic church, there are so many zits. At one time, I headed out to find another religion that would be more in line with my belief systems, like being an Episcopalian, or maybe a Unitarian but, I always found myself back at Mass. I discovered I love the ritual. I love going anywhere in the world and going to Mass and feeling at home. I love the sacraments. I love the Eucharist. Yes, there is so much I do not love but none of that seems to matter lately. It seems more important to me to focus on my relationship with God, in my case, my relationship with Jesus Christ.
I live in the South, the Bible belt of our country and I must say, I had to decide quite soon after I got here, what I believed. I decided I believe in Jesus Christ as God and Savior.
I know for many, this kind of declaration comes easily. They have been blessed with some sort of epiphany. Not I. My faith has grown very, very slowly. I need to say the words in my affirmations to keep me in my conviction. I have more questions than I will ever have answers but one of the women in my Small Christian Community once told me she didn’t have any questions; she only had one answer, “Jesus.” Wow!
I am aware of our different beliefs. Sometimes, I think one of my problems is I fully accept most people’s definition of God. But, I’ve decided it doesn’t matter what other people believe. What seems most important is what I have decided to believe, what works for me. And, I have decided to hunker-down and focus on Jesus Christ and simply let God do whatever work in me that He/She feels needs to be done. I believe with every fiber of my being that by focusing on Christ throughout my day, I will live a life without fear and anxiety, my life will be filled with miracles, and that without struggle, it will be transformed in ways beyond my imagination. I really do believe it, I really do.
Affirmation: 1. I embrace the blessings and grace that come to me through all of my experiences.
2. I accept the blessings and wonders of my life with grace and fortitude.
When I wrote about the affirmation, “The best is yet to come” and asked for feedback, the above affirmations are what I received. Once again, I feel I am being led to be grateful for everything that takes place in my life. What a lesson! What a challenge!
Today is 1/11/11. I tell you this because I am fascinated by numbers in general and in this case, it seems so powerful. Then, when I went back to read the original blog about Reality, I noticed it was posted on 1/1/11. So, it seems very appropriate to expand on the topic on this numerically memorable day. Am I the only one that is struck by this? My husband told me that when we get to 2013 the date will never repeat for another century. You will never have 13/13/13 etc. I had never thought about that before.
But, I divert. Probably because I am “iced in.” The weather is horrid and tomorrow morning isn’t looking very hopeful but if I am to embrace the blessings and grace that come to me through ALL of my experiences, I should be able to make peace with a day or two like this. I mean, I live in a warm part of the country and this will only last a short while, compared to other areas but, again, should that matter? If I’m embracing ALL of my experiences, it would be nice if I valued my days regardless of what else is going on. It seems so easy for me to slip into the suffering side of my day, my life. Me, someone who lives a life of abundant blessings. Perhaps, what is needed is a reality check, just like this one. If I were to list the things I am grateful for today, the list would be very long: my health, the health of my husband and children and grandchildren, my mother’s well-being, a warm pretty place to live, enough food to eat, friends to nurture and to nurture me, entertainment at my fingertips. And, with that list, I will even add an icy day or two. A couple of days to slow down, take a nap, read, think, write. I even made extra time to pray and to meditate.
Yes, a reality check has turned my thinking around. I do embrace the blessings and grace that come to me through ALL of my experiences.
Affirmation: I live a life filled with love: love of Christ, love of myself, family, friends, community and country.
The question in Sarah Susanka’s end of the year review in The Not So Big Life is, “If I could sum up all my desires and longings into one simple statement, spoken from the highest aspect of myself, what would it be?” And so, for 2011, this affirmation is my intention. What generally happens after I set such an intention is that my affirmations develop to support the intention. I’m not passively waiting for love to surround me or as my friend said, “You’re not simply sitting on the throne waiting for your adoring subjects to love you.” I mean questions arise. How will this happen? True, it might just “happen” because I have created the intention. My experience is that simply putting it into writing and sending it out into the universe, has a power beyond my comprehension. And, actually that’s what Sarah recommends. She tells you to put it away and take it out in a year and see what has happened. I set an intention like this for last year too. But, it sat at the top of my affirmation sheet. I read it every day and as time passed, I tweaked it. I examined what it meant for me to love and be loved. What did I have to change or improve upon? I must admit some days I am overwhelmed with gratitude for the love that fills my life. My greatest challenge is accepting it. But, that too is something I am affirming.
I am lovable, I am worthy, I do well.
Affirmation: The best is yet to come.
Actually, I think this affirmation needs tweaking and I welcome any feedback on it.
I went to a seminar at my church a few years ago. It was about aging with purpose. I was surrounded by many in their seventies and several octogenarians. When the lecture was over, one of the older women turned to me and asked me what I had taken from the speech. I appreciated the question and I returned it. I knew this lady. I knew she lived alone, her only child lives in Europe with her grandchildren. I knew she had experienced loss and health issues. She answered, head high, I learned, “The best is yet to come.”
Oh yes, I want to affirm that. As the new year begins, I must confess, I can get caught up in the fear of the future, the fear of the unknown. How different I feel when I face the year expecting “the best.”
But, what is that? Do I really want to live a live filled with no challenges? Maybe.
I think the life skill comes from being grateful for all of our experiences, the ones that we choose and the ones that choose us. My conversation with my chiropractor and her assistant yesterday revolved around how we create our own reality. I know this can be a dangerous thought, because we can blame ourselves for everything that happens to us and we might find ourselves blaming the victim which is not good. I haven’t fully cleared this up in my thought process, so any insight would be welcomed but I do believe that to a large extent, we create our own reality, we manifest our destiny.
I remember a cartoon many years ago showing a young girl filling in her calendar for the coming year. Her mother was curious how she could do that and what she was putting in it. She said she was putting down all the wonderful things that would be taking place. That’s what I want to be doing. I want to believe that this coming year will be filled with wonder and why wouldn’t it be? All my years, even those that were the most challenging, have been filled with blessings and wonder. It is true for as long as I can remember. And, with that thought, I head into 2011 on this day 1-1-11 expecting only the best. May your new year be filled with wonder and blessings in all things.