Keeping Out of the Cave of Phantoms
But, being back in school with all the tests, assignments and internships (62 credit hours) and final exams, took its toll on me. I would have days when I felt like I’d had ten cups of coffee but I hadn’t. I’d awaken shaking inside and all my tools that I’d developed over the years didn’t seem to help in anyway. I actually experienced several anxiety attacks but lucky for me, I was studying exactly what I was dealing with and so I could easily diagnose myself and get help. Since then, anxiety had visited me on (and luckily) off many times. I see it. I know it but so often, I can do nothing to alleviate it except to know, it will pass. Then, I saw a television commercial about the end of the world.
If you ever get a chance, go to the Newseum in Washington, DC. It is six floors of everything pertaining to the news as it was and as we now know it. It’s filled with fascinating exhibits and interactive experiences. On the main floor is the antennas from the top of the south building of the World Trade Center and on the wall are the front pages of all the major newspapers announcing the events of September 11, 2001. There’s a reminder that we don’t have a clue what’s facing us from moment to moment, no less far out into the future.